"Today was P-Day, but not really because we still had hours of classes and no free time. But we did get to go to the temple and get to email. I didn't really have any waiting for me though but Matt sent me a dear elder letter.
"Today was the first day that I struggled. I feel really insecure about the finite knowledge that I have and my ability to teach. I am really struggling to convey my thoughts but also to be understood. I think that the teachers all think that I am snarky and rude because I respond honestly to everything-even when it could be toned down. I think that I bring a completely different perspective to the table which-since its not understood, seems to just come across as disrespectful.
"Today was hard"- journal entry
I can remember feeling so proud of myself that I hadn't had a meltdown up until that point. I just felt completely defeated and a little lost. Everybody had been telling me how great the MTC was and how much fun I was going to have..but naturally, me being me, I just felt SO overwhelmed and inadequate.
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