Here's the thing..I'm not about babying people. If I'm frustrated or done..well I'm just done by that point. And I had already approached this point of no return spoken of. Sister Tripp and I were at odds..obviously not getting along very well but I found that as I continually prayed for patience and charity towards her..I would receive it. She and I were just so vastly different..and I know that SO much of the struggle between the two of us was my fault. I was irritated and once irritated I don't particularly like humbling myself to be in a place to be able to change my own ways. I would much prefer the irritator change their ways! So logical.
Not so. Tripp and I were both really bull headed and as I came to recognize her insecurities and what set her off I did next to nothing to ease therm. No Christlike points for that one. Looking back it is always easier to see where you went wrong and what you should have done..but I am fully aware that my time with Sister Tripp was a time in which I could have grown a ton..or digressed. I didn't digress but I certainly didn't make strides towards becoming a better missionary or person either. Now hopefully I don't face another equally tough companionship..but if I should I hope and pray that I will be able to move through it with a little more grace and tact..but also a lot more growth.
By way of summary: Sister Tripp and I had another rough day. Coming out of the day though I wrote down these goals for myself: "I want to be more confident in myself and in my teaching abilities. I want to be more charitable and loving towards my companions, investigators, and all of those that I come in contact with. I want to be more humble. I want to be more uplifting. I want to come home from my mission so different than I left."
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